We all carry this heavy load of knowledge about something or someone which we wish we didn’t have. It could be holding a secret or some unnerving information about your loved one. This article is based on such times when u feels, “Ah! I would have been better of not knowing this….”
Again I had the same dream. It was like this dream was following me for past few months. I felt like it had become my shadow during sleep. Shadow…, so true!, for I could not really see its interior in finest detail. I could see an arrow being shot. Just an arrow would come swirling through the wind. I could never see any archer with a bent bow and string resonating after the release. I could see nothing else. I never understood who I was in the dream. It was like just a part of some film was projected in front of me through my eyes, a 3d film with a frightening arrow piercing the wind. Every time I saw that arrow I gazed hard in the opposite direction for any other sight but there was never any. I could just hear the whistling sound it made on its trajectory. It was like some invisible veil was blocking everything else making it inaccessible to me!
Does it have any hidden message? Does it talk about the future? Has it anything to do with me if at all? They say dreams are pathway joining past, present and future! I used to wonder. But in the end I would comfort myself saying these kinds of things only happen in fairy tales not in real life. But again my other half would say then why have you encouraged yourself to dream big!
I got out of the bed. It was impossible for me to sleep now. I went in the kitchen to make myself coffee and turned on soft music. Hot cup of java really cheered me up! Richard cladman’s symphonies were playing in the background! After a while I laid back in the sofa just listening to the piano with eyes closed. Before I realized anything I was back in the wonderland of dreams. I was freefalling, as if bunjy jumping just that I could see no water below. There was very solid hard land. I tried to lookup and a shivering sensation went through my spine. I had severe pain due to an arrow stucked right below my ear. I tried to reach for it but before I could succeed land came in touching distance. I let out a loud shout and woke up still shivering with fear. Involuntarily my hand reached out for the neck only to find hairs drenched in sweat.
Were the dreams in anyway related to each other? If they were had they been trying to convey any message? Was I going to die? Was it that simple? Was it the end? I was restless for the whole day. Every night I would go to sleep thinking about it. But alas! I never had that dream in that entire month. First time I was restless due to dreamless sleep. Many questions danced in front of me. What was I going to do if any of it indeed was a glimpse from the future? Was I going mad? Did I need to consult a psychiatrist?
And again one night I had a dream. This time I saw the same arrow which came straight at me. I tried to duck in horror but my reflexes were too slow. The arrow went inside my neck just below my ear. I strong itchy sensation came followed with immense pain. As I tried to turn I lost my balance. I started to fall. I waved my hands in air imitating the birds but I was perhaps a bit too heavy for my hands to be able to make me fly. I looked down to see hard land coming closer by second and thankfully I woke up! I remained in the same position in bed for another 5 minutes. It was like every bit of energy was sucked up by this dream.
Many months passed. I never had that dream. Over the time I lost interest. It was like one of those times when you think about leaving the seat if a hero of a movie is about to get killed. I still think about it sometimes. But now I don’t ever feel like having any more of these dreams. I feel I am better of not knowing things. Many of the life‘s lessons come in way you hardly expect! Just like from this one now I know that “Knowledge is not always a privilege!”
©Devendra Oak.
